Tears rolled down

How’s everything dear?
She said,” He passed away”.
I felt suffocated and a pain,
Struck my cord so sharp.

Saw him healthy a year back,
Took me an hour to shed tears,
As I felt sorry for my friend,
My dear most one, a clean soul!

Love her for just being unique,
And respect her for her dedication,
That kept her stay put till the end,
As he counted his days in pain!

Kavitha Patchamalai

The Wall

The faded wall spoke stories,
Of Math, cartoon scribblings,
And a computer picture,
Must have been a small kid!

Painful time in the cancer ward,
Hurt me as how the tiny one,
Suffered in the grip of the disease,
As even adults would grow weak.

Didn’t have the guts to enquire,
About her and her existence,
But the stories on the wall flash,
On my inner mind and haunt me!

Kavitha Patchamalai

Before and After Chemo with Immunotherapy

Six months back, the patient X had a heart attack and was taken to a private hospital with the hb count as low as 5.4 g/dL. He was given 2 units of blood in ER. After all the tests proved persistent low hb, he was tested for Multiple Myeloma. The bone marrow biopsy and blood tests came positive and Dr. Varadarajan insisted on treating him immediately.

This Doctor is the most humane and transparent Doctor who goes with the facts and blood results and makes no fuss about the disease. His expertise comes with experience. In his late sixties, he is the most wanted Doctor who treats blood related disorders. The following image shows the m-spike that indicates the deadly disease.

The family and the patient’s cooperation was much needed. During the first chemo, the patient acquired severe Pneumonia and was treated with heavy antibiotics. It was a hard time for the patient who lost hope due to severe body pain and distress including anxiety and depression. After the second chemotherapy, the test results showed promising results as his body was responding to the chemo and immunotherapy, the hb rose to a considerable count.

While undergoing chemotherapy, the WBC count goes too low in turn makes the patient vulnerable to any infection that becomes uncontrollable and severe. The patient X, after 3rd chemo got dehydrated due to dysentery as his immunity was compromised.

Chemotherapy is not dangerous but the side effects are indeed fatal if not treated immediately. Based on the schedule, the patient completed six cycles of chemotherapy along with the immunotherapy. His hb is 13.6 g/dL. The following image shows the monoclonal peak missing.

The attendees or the family that takes care of the patient must be very vigilant and careful in providing food that is hot and fresh. The patient will experience mood swings and drive others crazy. The family must be in a position to tolerate the unexpected. It’s a very costly disease. One should be ready to burn their purse as each cycle would minimum cost a lakh. No money, no life. The modern medicines are amazing and I don’t think all could afford the treatment as money is not only the requirement but care taking and love is most needed.

  • please bear with my non medical language as I am not a doctor.

Kavitha Patchamalai

All whisper the word, “cancer” !

People pity and whisper the word cancer as it is truly deadly and scary. A common man cannot afford to get treated at a private hospital as the medicines are costly along with the room rent, investigation and other charges. On the other hand, the government hospitals slow the process.

You have to find a private doctor, a genuine soul who treats the patient with concern. One such doctor will give you strength to fight back but not the one who scares the patient to death.

let’s not wait!

I was disturbed, depressed and blank,

For I had no clue where to treat him.

Saw a few who could do nothing,

And I reluctantly pinged my friend.

Angel is she who guided me,

For I was totally lost.

Took my father who was too weak,

With his medical records with some hope.

Read through the records silently,

And he said, “let’s not wait.”

Burst out loudly out of control,

But he assured it cannot cured but can be controlled.

Trust is the feeling I got at first sight,

For he was too humble for his godly deeds.

Has healing hands and a humble heart,

Practices medicine with so much care.

Lifts the dying and makes them walk,

And I see him as a son of God.

Dedicate this to Dr. Varadarajan, Haematologist

Time is Ticking Fast

His time is ticking fast,
So fast that it must be slowed down.
My mind was totally blank,
And the road ahead was too dark.
Too dark that I had to stumble a lot,
And ahead was a deep gorge to keep in check.
Life can be cruel to anybody–
A child, a youngster or an old one.
Though found a new path,
Not sure if it is the right path.
The path may have twist and turns,
But the goal is to reach the destination.

Pneumonia Immediately After Chemotherapy

Pneumonia immediately after chemotherapy, is too severe for a cancer patient. With the highly compromised immune system, the bacteria or virus takes control and infects the patient with severe symptoms of the disease. Till the blood tests confirm the type of bacteria or virus, the patient is treated with pain killers and heavy antibiotics.

Pneumonia  Chest X-Ray
Pnuemonia, Chest infection

X-Ray shows slow recovery after treating with antibiotics

Severity of Fever and Cough

The patient will run high temperature as 103 °F with unbearable body pain. The cough will be too severe that you can find traces of blood in the sputum. Unless treated immediately, it will be fatal. The mental condition becomes worse as the patient starts hallucinating and moaning in pain. Even the strongest will start crying over the unbearable pain and discomfort.


Most of the nurses enquire whether the patient has urinated if the fever does not subside. Once the patient flushes out the bacteria through urine, the fever breaks. That is the most miserable moment for the patient who lays helpless on the bed having mixed emotions about the disease and death.

Slow and Steady

The doctor will immediately stop the chemotherapy and put the patient on antibiotics and immunotherapy. The team will monitor the patient for any adverse effects through repeated blood tests and chest x-ray. It may take atleast ten days to recover and be ready for the next chemo dose.

Food and Cleanliness

You must be very careful with the food you cook for the patient. Any food that is boiled or steamed for atleast twenty minutes is advisable to avoid infection. Even fruits should be soaked and washed in hot water.

Love and Care

Not only the immune system is weak but also the self is broken and miserable. You must ensure that the patient is treated with love and utmost care since they feel insecured and behave like a child.